I know what means to become older. It means to become in some way forgotten by people who surround you. When they begin to think, that you are already responsible, can stay on your own for a long time without anyone's attention(of course I mean a long period of time, not like a couple of hours)- it's the first signal, that you are getting older. People begin to apply to you only on some business affair or just ask for some help. They can easily exchange you for their friends or smth more interesting and worthy. I am already experiencing all these attitudes towards me now. I have no real friend, really. I try to be kind and interesting to people, but God, why, oh why do I have no friend? I am a tedious, very modest and discreet person. People seem not to like such people as I am.
Maybe it's good, that I have no real friend, just mates? But you know, I usually remind me myself as an old lady, who is already a pensioner and has already run through her life. Well... That's in fact the problem that can't be solved. But I want to have fun sometimes, somewhere outside... That's impossible...For such people as I am.