I wish I had not been born!

I can't stand myself. My parents are totally tired of me. I feel that. People can't stand me as well. I am afraid of them. I am afraid to go out. I don't know how to behave at some places. People's mood will probably be spoiled with my appearing. Though I try to take care of my appearance I look ugly. I hate myself. I don't deserve anything good. I don't deserve to have fun. I don't deserve anything beautiful. I am a bad daughter, friend and a girlfriend. I will probably be an awful wife as well. I wish I could become invisible and just disappear.