Perfect

Everything seems to be not bad around me, but still I can't make ends meet. There is always smth that either irritates me or makes me feel depressed. Yes, That's probably the word of this looong period of my life-"DEPRESSION". It's already a part of me, my soul. I am totally used to it. I just do not want to exist any more. Can't find any sense in my life. That's awful, but still that's the very way things are. I must thank God for what I've got now. Thank you. It's just perfect.

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It goes without saying, that all people in the world worry about the situation in Japan. I am shocked and afraid of the end of our Universe, which is said to be in 2012. I think, that these are just the first symptoms of the Universe's disease. Use this link http://www.abc.net.au/news/ and see what has happened in the world. The site is just perfect.
P.S. Enjoy every single minute of your life, pray your God and help people.

Spring is coming!

Finally it's getting warm. In fact I like winter with its snow, but I feel like my body needs some sun and fresh air. It was so sunny today, that I had realized that I wouldn't refuse to wearing sun glasses. Unfortunately it is still snowy on the roads and I am wearing winter clothes, as it is still cold when I leave my house for the university. As for university-its awful. We are made to study Economics there. Neither the lecturer nor the teacher explain us anything and I being a total philologist can hardly understand a single definition. I am really depressed. Why on Earth I need Economics, if I am going to become  an English teacher?
Well, in any case there is some good news, that make me concentrate over them and get rid of bad thoughts. Finally I am getting everything philosophically and can prevent myself from losing control over myself.
Gee, will I ever grow up and do everything in a proper way? I hope...

I know...

I know what means to become older. It means to become in some way forgotten by people who surround you. When they begin to think, that you are already responsible, can stay on your own for a long time without anyone's attention(of course I mean a long period of time, not like a couple of hours)- it's the first signal, that you are getting older. People begin to apply to you only on some business affair or just ask for some help. They can easily exchange you for their friends or smth more interesting and worthy. I am already experiencing all these attitudes towards me now. I have no real friend, really. I try to be kind and interesting to people, but God, why, oh why do I have no friend? I am a tedious, very modest and discreet person. People seem not to like such people as I am.
Maybe it's good, that I have no real friend, just mates? But you know, I usually remind me myself as an old lady, who is already a pensioner and has already run through her life. Well... That's in fact the problem that can't be solved. But I want to have fun sometimes, somewhere outside... That's impossible...For such people as I am.

Big girls don't cry!

Why, or why I want to cry in most cases? I seem to be a small girl...Just tired of occupying this position between teenaging and adulting.

Luckily I am recovering. I have missed two days at the university and one way of tutoring my pupil, but that's ok, I will catch up with the rest of my  group and we shall work hard with my pupil. Now I am eager to do all my home tasks and then watch one of my most favorite films "Dirty dancing". Especially I like the second part about Havana's nights. The main character bears some resemblance to myself.
 Well, I adore dirty dancing, really! That's so...hot! I used to attend classes of Latin dancing for a few months last spring and my coach told me that I have already reached the level of a professional. I couldn't even imagine, that I can move my hips so hot, because all those movements are banned in ballet. Though I gave up these classes I hope I will take them up soon again, maybe in a week or so, because I need smth to splash out my energy. This variant suits me perfectly! Besides, I will improve my figure=)

Adore Patrick Swayze in this movie! He is super hot!

One of my favorite moments. dunno why, just like it.